i mis him T_T

Well. hi.. kamusta ka ASH?! mejo nahihilo na naman ako sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ko. Feeling ko hindi na ako ung ASH na dating inaalagaan ko ung image and everything. Feeling ko ang sama-sama ko kasi first, I’m so emotional !!! And what’s worst is that I cry!!! Umaasa ako sa mga friend ko. I hate myself. Ito pa I LIE A LOT!!! Grabe.. I just can’t believe it pero grabe ako magsinungaling.. naiirita ako sa sarili ko!!! PUTAKTE!!! ano ba naman toh?! Ung pagsisinungaling ko madaming naapektuhan. Hai. I’m Immature din this days.. I want to really be Mature na talaga, but my childish ways ay bumabalik sa akin. I hate it!!!
Ito pa I don’t know what I want in life? I’m confused! I know I do the things because I want to. Pero ewan ko ba!!! Tapos may problema pa ako interms of TIME of RELASTIONSHIP!! bakit ganun gusto ko laging magpakasaya?! hay..
Pero I think after all hindi nyo na rin ako masisisi, I’m emotionally tormented. I’m broken inside. Ang daming nawawala sa buhay ko.. I’m sad.. I Just don’t know where to stay.. I miss everyone.. I miss the people that I am with before..=’(.. Hindi ko alam kung anung nangyayari na sa akin.. I’m lost..

But what’s good about me is that I still have that eagerness to change the bad doings of this world. Ang pangit lang kasi ginagawa ko din ung BAD doings eh. hay.. But I still want to see the world in a different side. I want to explore. I want to be Happy..